Heat. Dry. Parching. Heat. When writers want to show desperation on its last legs, they describe a person in the desert – too dehydrated to sweat, but still wiping their brow. Maybe they’re crawling, looking for an oasis, but just one step from death’s door if they don’t get some relief from the heat. Still, they go on, searching for shade, for water, for anything that will help. Perhaps it isn’t always that dramatic for most of us in life, but just working in the heat of the summer drains us. We do some cleaning outside and the next thing you know, we go inside and flop on the couch – exhausted.
As followers of Christ we live in a world that’s full of temptations. We can usually avoid temptations. Then, we give in. We try to make sure that God doesn’t know about what we did. We hide from God like Adam and Eve in the garden. If God doesn’t see me now, then it didn’t happen. We play peek a boo with God hoping He can’t find us. David described that problem of unconfessed sin by comparing it to the energy draining summer heat. “For day and night your hand was heavy on me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer.” (Psalm 32:4)
When you think about it, it’s really silly to think that we can hide from God. But we try. We avoid fellow Christians who might condemn us – even though true followers of Christ won’t. We do all that we can to put on the appearance of living right. Yet our sin causes a weariness that we can’t get away from. And God knows. But God isn’t seeking to “zap” us for our sin. Isn’t it funny that in avoiding God when we do wrong so that He won’t zap us leads to a longer stretch of time when we are spiritually drained. We undergo a spiritual water torture rather than letting God deal with us – even though we know that He wants to forgive us and restore our relationship with Him.
David subsequently talked about the freedom that came when God forgave his sin after he confessed it. That truly is joy. That truly is release. We avoid God and try to hide our sin for so long because we’re afraid of the consequences. Maybe we get the idea that this sin is so great that God can’t forgive us. Then, when we finally break down and bring it before God, He forgives. He reminds us that Jesus paid the price on the cross. He gives us His grace and mercy and re-establishes His relationship with Him. Confessing sin before God isn’t an exercise in shame and punishment; it is a release of His grace and mercy in our lives. Are you trying to hide something from God? Don’t. He knows. He wants to forgive. Come before Him and accept His mercy and grace.
Lord, so often I fail You and feel ashamed to be in Your presence. I am grateful that You have never been ashamed to call me Your child. Forgive my sin. Restore me to a right relationship with You.